Hi hellos! It’s been a while. it’s been at least four or five months since I’ve had to be posted anything other than updates. So I think it’s time I do some explaining.
The past few months have been kind of bad. I’ve mentally been up in lowest that I’ve been in such a long time. I’ve gone back into this dark place and it hasn’t been fun. I’m okay but I just been mentally exhausted to where I don’t want to do anything I can’t do anything. For starter is moving has been terrible we were supposed to be moved out by January it is now March and we have to the end of this month to figure out what’s going on I’m not too worried about it because I know everything will work out the way it’s supposed to work out but it’s putting a lot of stress on people and I’m so tired of having to deal with it on my own. Another thing my dad shingles has not gone away. He’s been in a lot of pain and hasn’t been feeling good because of it of course I have to take care of him and it’s become a lot because I’m up every other hour to put medicine on him or give him medicine and no one stops for 2u seconds to ask how I’m doing and it’s a lot.
lately I’ve just been feeling really alone because no one has had my back and no one has been there for me when I needed someone. no one stops and ask how I’m doing I’ve been sick I’ve had multiple bells palsy attacks and no one cares because I have to get things done I have to cook dinner I have to go get food of my dad once that I have to clean I have to take care of him no one cares for me basically. so having all that weight on my shoulders has not helped me mentally at all.
Like I said I’m doing okay like it’s nothing serious to worry about but just the feeling of being mentally exhausted and alone sucks and I have another energy to do much. But I’ve been doing a lot of school work and I am killing it with a good grades but again no one’s really there to celebrate with me so. As for me writing again I’m solely making my way back I have some stuff planned that I’m excited to post so hopefully you’ll get to see those soon but I want to get back at this I just need to not be exhausted anymore.